I said something which sounded like I was threatening to leave her. She had abandonment issues. I said that some couple of months ago. I also said something which made it sound like she was just a second option months after. Things really started to get hairy around a month ago. I was under a lot of stress because things just didn't seem to be going my way for weeks. I guess it just caused me to lash out at her. It all just feels so complicated. We both knew this would happen eventually but it still hurts. We don't love each other anymore, but we still care about each other, more or less. It hurts, man. It fucking hurts.