So it has come to this. Finally the moment I've waited for. Now there's no turning back I have to brave the darkness once again to bail you out of your shit and clean up your mess to save you from yourself. I'm not your fucking dad you know.
Maybe I'm too far gone.
Maybe I just don't fucking care.
Maybe I get high living on the edge of oblivion.
No matter the reason I'm stuck where I am with no way out like a rat in a cage. I deeply lament knowing everything that I do. Sometimes I wish I'd wake up somewhere strange with no memory and with another name just to start over..... maybe I should just disappear again. Up and leave to keep anyone from getting drug down by my shit. She did it 10 years ago... why can't I? It all worked out in its own way.
Maybe I'm just too stuck in a dream.
Maybe I'm just stuck in my past.
Maybe we just make the same mistakes over again until we die.
It's all just dreams. Beautiful dreams to lull us asleep as reality slowly passes until we come to a dead stop at the grave.
I'm just so tired of it all but I bought a ticket so I'm going to see this to the end.
God please have mercy on my poor tired soul for my legs can no longer handle the burdens I've placed on myself.
Maybe I'm just asleep.