Anon, nihilism does not have to be an inherently pessimistic philosophy. So you've seen past the veil, so you know magic does not exist and we live in an indifferent universe. None of that matters. Your emotions exist, your joy exists, and your sadness exists. Live for yourself and the people around you, because you only get one shot at this. If this is your only opportunity to be alive, LIVE, don't just crumple into despair. Don't waste your opportunities, this life is incredible. It didn't have to happen, but it did, and we can make what we will of it.