Henlo /bant/, i need some help.
I dont make many threads, but its gotten to the point where i need some help and its thread worthy instead of just asking through replys. Also, im putting my problems here as well just for some context. Ill put parentheses and say something when i start talking about my problems im having trouble with. To start off, when I was 4 I was physically abused by the teacher of my preschool, i was raped by an older man and my dad died all in the same year and I had to deal with mental trauma for years. My mom was abusive and drank a lot at the time and I had to take care of myself at a young age and try to make my life better. When I was 8 i had a pretty bad sexual situation happen at a family reunion with my cousin and his friends, and when I was in 6th grade I was almost molested but managed to get help. My only friends were kids that kept me around to bully me at any time, and i was bullied a lot throughout my elementary years. My mom is currently abusive and has guys over to satiate her sex drive all the time, a few of them have seen me naked and tried to do stuff with me but gave up pretty quick. My entire family hates me and outcasts me, the Christian side thinks that im bad in general and the Catholic side avoids me. When I was younger i had to witness my mom run over my really young dog and i had to deal with my health issues throughout all of this. I have issues with my lungs, i have a weak heart, my muscles are fairly weak, i have lupus, and to top it off i have almost nobody in real life except for my boyfriend and when we talk he gets mean or ignores me (this is what i need help with). Anyways, like every mtf i ended up falling in love with my best friend. I was in love with him for over a year before he found out in july of 2017, and he was sort of confused. Shortly afterwards i introduced him to a girl, and he started flirting with her on august 1st and when i tried to stop it he called me a cockblock