Don't beat yourself up. We're all suffering in our own quiet ways right now. Try to do a little something every day, just to normalise a habit. It will get easier as time goes on to add more. It will always remain a challenge, especially with economic competition the way it is, but you'll find the act of living becomes just something you do, with less analysis, and fewer moments of ripping yourself to shreds. I'll pray for you anon! Struggle on! Happy Easter!