I'm sitting my basement full-time, not talking to anyone, just watching the days go by. Social anxiety, depression, I think I might be a little autistic as well, but I'll probably never know since I'm afraid to even go to a psychiatrist. I barely ever leave my room when my flatmates are home, they are obnoxious and can't take a hint that I don't want to fucking talk just because I went out to take a shit or cook something. They like to throw parties without consulting me as well, they just think that I'm okay with everything they do. They're probably gonna do it again and I have nowhere to go if I want to avoid them.
I got kicked out of university twice already, NEETing right now, slowly running out of money, have 1 month at most. I should find a job but I'm scared as fuck, it's literally impossible for me to make a single phone call, when I think about having to do something I've never done in my life, I instantly know I'm gonna fail at it and get a panic attack.