Ehh maybe i'm retarded because i no know how use english langag
However, I meant it that way:
I'm not clean, meaning I'm an alcoholic and junkie. I'm not a clean person, meaning I don't clean my room or something. Because I directly go to bed after work, watch TV or browse /bant/, only having time at weekends, I never clean my room. During weekends, I'm usually drunk or high. Often, it's both. I'm not proud of it, but it's mainly to get my thought's away from depression.