What keeps me going is my love for anime.
Watching videos in cytube / chatting in cytube.
My love of getting shitfaced on Vodka.
My 5 yr old nephew.
My twin brother.
My love of good food and street food.
The anticipation of the next great video game.
And just the little things.
There's plenty of good things in life, anon.
You probably just keep forgetting.