I do deserve to suffer though. I've made so many mistakes, have so many regrets. I'm literally worthless, all I do is lay around dazed on drugs all day, living off the government's money.
I'm hideous. I deserve to die screaming; but I'm too much of a coward to do anything about it.
I've hurt people I love, I've been nothing but misfortune my whole life.
I never asked to be born, I never wanted to be.
I know many people will be glad to see me gone.
I really do not deserve love and acceptance. Some people are just garbage, and I am one of them. That's just how it is, how the world is. It's cruel and unforgiving, and I want out.