My whole life, I refused to drink or smoke because it's exactly the opposite of cure. I don't see the point in making it worse than it actually is.
That being said, sometimes I feel the urge to get drunk and escape the reality for some time. But you know what they say - it's easiest to say no for first time.>>3891089
I'm similar. Lately, I've been pushing my friends away and I felt really bad about that, just like you. I mentioned that in a previous thread when I really felt like sharing that with someone.
But then I realized it's actually a good thing. Because if I make them hate me, they won't lose any more time with retard like me.
And finally, it won't hurt them when I end it. Well, if I'm brave enough to do it.