I don’t remember the last real feeling I have had. It’s been years, since then I have had weird relationships, and met people and every time I just feel nothing. No love no connection nothing, I think that I can fix my self teach my self to learn how to love, I never can, I remain cold or just fake emotions to try to make the person happy.
I go through my day working for what end, I just want to feel something besides dread. I want to feel a real emotion. I have no real chance in life to love, I think I messed up and fucked up too much to love.