I hate that when I do get compliments(which is very rare) that they just feel empty or sarcastic. I never feel that anything anyone actually does it honest or real, and I don’t know if anything I do is honest or real. I just rather someone be mean to me than compliment me.
I don’t know why my brain is wired backwards, I hate physical/intimate touch and I hate compliments.
I guess I just want someone who I can try to be honest with, if I can figure out how to do that.