Well anon, I'm also in this kind of situation. I had a group of "friends" in highschool but I always had this unfitting feeling, and when I moved to another town as a student, I went full reclusive.
I had this think about going to the male at night or not going to the hairdresser.
For 3 years long I didn't talk to anyone at college.
I had a period of drinking for 1 year.
Well life is fucked up for our kind, I just gave up on human contact and I hope I can start to make myself feel better by working hard in CS field and learning some creative skills, but I really doubt since I have interest in too many things to be efficient and I feel like an empty shell when it comes to create things.
Here is a little robot I found about, few years ago I was always dreaming of a Lain-shapped bot who would be as friendly as possible to all the lonely guys around the net who'd feel the need to talk.