I don't know what it must feel going through what you have gone, but let me tell you that I know Mami is proud of you, I am proud of you, and you should be proud of yourself too.
She made the choice to live, that was her wish, so that's the first step, we gotta keep fighting and stay alive. That's the hardest part, but you already made the choice, so please never forget it.
I identify with Mami because like her, I chose to live too, so now I try my best to find things to enjoy in this life and make every day count.
We can't save the world, but we can save ourselves, and in that, maybe we can make the world smile. That's enough to keep me going.