i'm not sure how long you've been wanting to forget about her but the answer won't change. either acknowledge that she'll be with you forever or try to get addicted to something else. love isn't something that you can just shake off and ignore easily>>3486127
no matter what you did, you should never see it as a point of no return. if your really are serious then learn to accept the mistakes you've made and understand that mami would most likely forgive you; if you really do care then just make sure not to do it again and to always do your best for her. no one should be burdened by their past mistakes so long as they care enough to change and ask for forgiveness but if you do not want to change or accept what you did was wrong, then there is no help for you.
i'm not sure if you're the same anon each thread but there has been advice on this in previous threads, the answer will never change. though if you want something else then feel free to ask it.