You may not appreciate it but this is what /out/ peak performance looks like.
I always liked outdoor life and have been on quite a few car-camping trips as well as backpacking in mountains. I can start and keep a fire on a rainy day, pitch a tent, cook on a campfire or stove, dress properly to weather, know first aid. I want to go solo badly, cuz people are nuisance that can ruin any /out/ing.
So I found some unserviced national park with primitive backcountry camping sites, about 20 miles from nearest town. They say you can spend a day there without sighting a human being. But I feel a bit uneasy about going solo. Here's why:
> always relied on others in my trips, usually more experienced than myself
> uncomfortable in darkness, mere thought of being alone innawoods at night sends my heart racing
> bear fear, I have read how black bears are as harmless as kittens, will buy some spray, but fuck those things are scary
> no experience navigating in woods. Trails are supposed to be marked and I only plan 15k walk, but fuck, what if I get lost
> being fatherless pussy in general
Pls halp me make up my mind.