Contribution. Only had 2 sized pens. And ran out of motivation towards the bottom.. As you can clearly tell. And yes the alligator was actually there. :)>>1006080
I sat down for about 20 minutes. Thought about some things. Got up and walked around the area for about 2 hours. Btw no cops ever showed up. When I finally got home, I realized they dispatched the cops to the address on the phone bill (my parents home address) but my parents told them it must of been an accident but my mum called me like 2 times.
Not much too it. I went home. And sat around realizing once more nobody would of cared and those who would, would have to just get over themselves. Put my gun away an just kinda forgot about the whole ordeal for months, until when I made my first post here.
I tried to find a therapist through my insurance but the insurance company sent a local list through email. I did some googling on like 5 of them before I gave up looking was too complicated to source a good one and half of them where hospital sponsored or the crazy place. And it didn't matter anyway since I wanted to die because of a physical medical condition, not something mental. Idk I just turned myself off. Quit my job and let my lease become unpaid moved back in with my parents, even more miserable then I was on my own desu. And I want to be out of here by the end of the year.. My little sister got knocked up by some nignog and never moved out and shes due in October and I sure as fuck don't wanna hear a screaming baby.. I've asked a few friends but most of them don't got room.. So idk what I will do over the summer.. But it needs to be something and fast.