Stop taking yourself so seriously. Re-frame your outlook. You aren't the most important person in the world, and you can't be. You either nut up and do what needs to be done for your well being or you lose. The world is cruel, but you can win if you persist. That is the truth.
People lie all the time, but hope and perseverance are the true keys to this place. Mostly, you just need to forget about your feelings until your life is better. Sometimes that's the only way. You can work that shit out with a therapist later, for now life takes precedence.
God will help you, if you let him.