we're all going through something, be it a hard breakup or that you're fucked for that upcoming exam
post a pape and let it out anon
>finally stopped hanging out with the a bad crowd ; friends were druggies and now the loneliness sets in as the rest of the people you knew moved to the city >tfw they have busy lives and careers while you sit at home watching life go on without you
25 now. Recently quit a job, i went the first day then stayed at home for two weeks because i honestly did not give a fuck.
That's not the first time I've done something similar, in fact I've probably done it with every single job I've ever had. I just get so fed up with the same daily routine and bored that i just stay home, most of the time i don't even bother faking being sick or give any kind of notice.
Now I'm looking for a new job, but i know that I'm just going to repeat the same fucking pattern, i just simply don't have the work ethic of some people. How some can get up in the morning at the same time and repeat the same daily process five days a week is honestly mystifying to me, I've never been able to keep a job for more than a few months. My mother frequently works like three night shifts in a row, and she's expressed to me that she's not overly fond of her job, so where the fuck did she get the drive to still get out of bed and just do it.
I'm absolutely a lazy useless cunt, with very low social skills, no practical work skills, even typing these words i feel fucking ashamed of myself, but yet I'm too apathetic at this point to do anything about it. I honestly don't believe I'm worth salvaging, I feel like i was born broken and i will die broken.
I've never been in a relationship, still a virgin and I've only ever been on one date which obviously led nowhere. I have a "fear" of intimacy. I don't even care about sex at this point, i jack of once or twice a week, what i need is any kind of affection, i just need a hug, but i also think I'm to broken and pathetic to deserve a hug from anyone, i feel like a complete waste of time.
I have no idea what would make me happy, i can have fun, sure, but only for a few minutes. I seriously can't remember the last time i was happy an entire day.
I'm the reason for my own unhappiness, i also hate myself enough to where i don't care to fix it. Fuck man, what else is there to say?
>What are startpages?
Startpages (in the context of this thread) are locally hosted webpages (as in, the files are on your computer - not a server somewhere) that serve as the homepage or new tab page for a browser. They generally contain some number of links to frequently visited sites as the main element; search bars, clocks, calendars and other embedded items are usually added as secondary elements.
>What browser are you using?
If you can't tell what browser it is, it's probably Firefox, you can theme Firefox using Stylish and finding themes on the Firefox tag of Userstyles.
Otherwise if you won't upgrade there's always Chrome, you can ~slightly~ customize it using Chrome Theme Maker. Lately, we noticed Vivaldi can can has custom css too.