Holy shit, I am so happy these threads are still going.>>7229890
I had a similar issue with my beliefs. I was really pushing deep into existential despair. The thing that got me through was reading philosophy and thinkers that were going through the same. I guarantee there's theologians who have dealt with the same.>>7236472
I'm sorry to hear that nothing has really made you feel happy. It could be that 'things' don't satisfy you and you should look other places for peace of mind.>>7237939
Keep trying. I've been in a similar relationship romantically. > I've dated a couple girls last year and got to a whole lot of nothing
Not true. While it may have not resulted in a relationship, I think you need to look at it as an attempt. Most if not all attempts will fail. It feels horrible but eventually something clicks with someone and it works. The best you can do is find ways to improve yourself and keep trying. The same could be said for work and applying.
Damn. Reading all these puts my problems into perspective. I feel better but still should share. I feel I am forced to choose my work, which is the only thing that makes me feel okay, and a life that can have meaningful relationships especially romantic ones. I feel like I need both to have a life I deem worth living but they feel so incompatible. My girlfriend broke up with me because I work too much and I don't foresee finding someone else who can tolerate how much I do work; I don't blame her. Fuck. I know I would choose work because it will always be there unlike people. If I choose work I have no one to motivate me to keep going while on the other hand if I choose loved ones I feel like I gave up responsibilities to the world out of selfishness. My work is small in impact but it's towards something that is/will prevent a lot of suffering plus I don't enjoy much of anything anymore outside of work save for spending it with loved ones.