I have always thought that I am a good person. I don't hurt others or at least not from what I know. I am not the violent kind of guy and I always try to cheer other people up even when I may not have the best day myself. I generally just think that everyone deserves some kind of chance of love.
I have been told that I probably should just let it go or at least try to turn my chin to something else for a time to get my mind back to normal. I could say that I just find it really hard, but you probably know that or could imagine.
She was someone manipulative at times but I am/was too much of a sucker to question it because hey, she may made me happy.
Weird thing is, I am not mad at her, not even for breaking up with me. I just feel empty once more. I feel like that one person who I thought enjoyed the time spend with me actually still had those good times with me, but I was wrong.