What you said really resonates with how I feel.
I often wonder what I have done with my life. I have conducted myself in a way that has taken me to somewhere I did not intended to go.
The worst of everything is that I know exactly what I should do. I know exactly how to improve myself so that I become closer to what I should be. So that I become more than what I am.
I just lack the courage to take the sword.
Fuck. Fuck it all. It was not supposed to be like this. It should not be like this.
I will try to be better anon. You try the same.
Godspeed. See you at the other side.