Feel pretty shitty about slacking off this late in the semester, even had drop a class. I'm doing good but I'm afraid of failing at the last moment. I'm also afraid I'll eventually lose motivation. Otherwise, have an okay job and have saved up some money, thinking about buying my first car soon. Overall better than I was doing a few years ago. Even lost my virginity a couple months back. I still miss those neet days though, staying awake long into the night enjoying my hobbies without any stress to look forward the next day. I don't think I properly conveyed how I feel in this post. Maybe a bitter-sweet feeling? or maybe just one long deep sigh.