I'm turning 20 in about 3 months and I still have no clue what I want to do with my life. I have friends, but I see them so rarely due to them going to school. I work a dead-end job 40+ hours a week earning just above minimum wage.
I'm pretty emotionless at the moment, I saw my father blow his brains out right in front of me earlier this year, seems I can't get over it, even 10 months later.
My only joy in life really is getting out on my mountain bike. I wish I could just ride forever and forget all my worries, but I don't have the time to do that, I'm living paycheck to paycheck pretty much.