we weren't together long, but she told me she loved me. i didnt want to have sex right away because she made my life surreal, i didnt need it or want it to fuck shit up between us.. i finally had somebody that loved music like i do. i was her engineer. then she got a job at a venue and met another guy who probably instantly gave her dick and started dating him while i was still with her, and i found out on my birthday that she was with him the past two weeks.
This is today.
i just turned 20.
i feel stupid letting this happen to me again.
but thats life.
shit happens, and its how you deal with other peoples retarded actions that define you as a person.
i love myself.
i kept my word and my promises.
i never gave up.
so why should i be down?
the way i see it, my future significant other will have seen how i was to her, and will want what she had.
i have a lot to offer.
i grew up with a brother and sister who both suffered from horrible panic attacks and anxiety attacks.
i learned how to stop them.
its like a superpower, i can make the panicking and anxiety go.
like i absorb it or something.
and now she doesn't have me to be there for her.
i wish none of this happened, i wish we were together and shit was like it was a month ago.
but that won't happen.
oh well, fuck her.
she was stupid as fuck anyway, have fun getting around the cities without your boyfriends car, money, and care.
hope your probation officer catches your ass and teaches you a lesson that you can apply to your life.
god fucking damn it.
4chan is good sometimes.
thank you for letting me type this somewhere where it doesn't matter what i fucking brew up in my head.