I went on these types of threads three years ago when I was really depressed and in fear of failing university. I did fail university but I am feeling so much better without the stress and I feel so optimistic about an open future but I feel like while the nature of my depression has changed, it is more insidious now. At least back then it was directly related to things happening in my life that might have been fixed, but now it comes as a sense of waste. it's like if my basic emotions and higher level sense of purpose were fuel, in university I had less but at least it was on fire. Now i have a huge reservoir inside me, but try as I might i cannot make it catch flame.