Im a 23 year old virgin, just had my first kiss a few weeks ago. Almost had sex but I was so nervous I couldnt even get it up. I thought she was going to work with me on it but she seems to be avoiding me. Idk if its even worth it, I like her but she has her own set of problems and literally EVERYONE who knows about us says I should jump ship because "I can do better"
but I really dont think I can. Ive loved before, had "girlfriend' that really wasnt when I was 16 but this has been it as far as my love life goes and even though I say it doesnt bother me, and some days it doesnt, im really ashamed and embarrassed. I feel like im not living my youth to my fullest potential and I get too nostlagic for the past, then over think the things I could be doing or could have done and I just feel like a loser. So Instead I come here most of the time and read the same posts and post the same shit just to have some people to talk with, its the only thing that gives me some peace of mind. My home life isnt even terrible, but im so bored and hate where my life has been the past few years. I just want to finish school and get the fuck out of here and start fresh. Im just so tired of this life, Im tired of who I am and the things I cant do because of it.
Thats it really, Im just so, so very tired