Thanks anons. Its not co much that I feel down or feel like ending it all. Its just I dont understand how life can be so unfair to some individuals and not to others. I have always accepted that fact, that life is unfair. And im ok with it. I just dont understand it. I love life. But man having all those experiences happen to you in a 4 year period can definitely wreck your psyche. Cancer alone rekt my mentality enough, but adding in all those other experiences, and then top it off having to deal with this shit alone since the only family I speak to on a somewhat regular basis lives in deep South Mexico and im in the US. No family here to lean back on even for emotional support. Thanks anons for listening. More than anything I wanted to share my little piece to show that hey your situation might not be as bad as you may think or feel. I am also up for any questions.
P.S I like the boat house idea I have always loved the ocean, boats, and being alone. That idea has crossed my mind anon.
P.S.S I have alot of wallpapers from years of lurking, if you are looking for something specific lemme know.