I feel you man. It's tough feeling like there's no one there for you, especially when you need someone the most. Sure we all got some sort of friends, but they're more like the sort of friends that you only see at work or school. I dont want to overstep any lines but I assume your like me and just want to be included but are too nervous to take the initiative. It really sucks, but somehow it keeps getting easier with each day. I hope this helps.