turning 21 this year and I realized how I've just been coasting along my whole life. Never had to make any decisions because I just followed orders for years.
This year is really my "last try" to say; I don't really have any desires to go to college, but I'm gonna go back full time while I'm living with my parents.
Going to the gym now and try to eat more (skeleton) too
Maybe if things stay dim I might join the military, or maybe just buy a 1-way ticket to Eurasia somewhere. Trying to fight the urge to off myself honestly