You got this man. You are honing in on worthwhile life goals, and you are bearing your cross and struggles well. Just be honest and open up with your gf and anyone else around you as they are your key support now.
As for me, a lot of shit happened this month:>finally got first gf ever (happened to be a virgin too)>at same time, I was diagnosed with Chlamydia during my first STD test>set off spiral of anxiety which caused STD like symptoms after I was cured which put me in ER on Thanksgiving >have inevitable medical bills to pay>My grandpa who is like a second dad tried to kill himself (hasn't been right since stroke and grandma's passing earlier this year)>family is breaking apart from it - my uncles and one of my aunts no longer speak with each other>still feel like a hopeless manchild even though I finally live on my own and have a job>still feel lost as ever career and life wise - I have a degree which is not that relevant at my job
Anyone else just feel utterly unprepared for life as an adult? I almost miss the simple days of playing video games from waking up until I went to sleep.