I don't really know anymore. Things are kind of looking up for me I'd say. I'm 19, going to be 20 in a month. Finally got a job and after some screwing around I have a roster, so I'll be getting money and be doing something instead of sitting on my ass at least. Other than that though, I don't really know. I'm a complete mess and I haven't had proper sleep for ages because I just stopped caring about myself. Even though things are getting a bit better with having a job and all, I'm just so damn lonely and depressed. I keep longing for a relationship and love, even though for a long time I tried to convince myself it's better without it. I keep having dreams where I have a girlfriend, then waking up feeling like complete shit. I don't know. I can't even take care of myself better yet someone else. I'm just so alone and lost. The world doesn't feel real to me.>>7452123
I have Aspergers too. Diagnosed when I was really young. It's fucked up my life so much, I wish I didn't have it. I want to become a better person too... but I just don't know what to do anymore.