My life has become so melancholic and desolate. I keep going through the motions. I have one close friend and a few others. No gf, I gave up after the last girl I was with but I have some girl ive been using for sex, telling her we're in a relationship. I go to school and get average grades and go to a job where I preform averagely. I would get a lot of enjoyment from vidyas but they've become so lack luster. I launch a game get board and stare into space for the rest of the night. Everything seems so dull.