im in the same boat, got my first job about 8 months ago. i was unloading trucks at Ross, one day i just up and quit without giving them 2 weeks, dad was disappointed and i cried myself to sleep that night. it took so much for me to get that job, was making $11 an hr and i threw it away. the weird thing was that when i got my first pay check i felt nothing, like it ment nothing to me and it made me, scared almost cause i should have flipped shit and been like "hell yeah i can buy shit for myself now" but i didnt. its really hard for me to take responsibility for myself and do things i dont want to do cause im so used to feeling "safe" or "relaxed" all the time. im always doubting myself and putting myself down and i dont know how to stop it i really dont. but anyway here's a pape, maybe i should go to a therapist even though i really dont want to.