i have a family now, but im mentally selfish. I rather be alone and explore the world. and not the stupid shit like tourist attractions either. I want to be alone so that if I do something stupid, no one else would get hurt.
I feel like my family is holding me back from truly being happy but I will never say that out loud or straight up choose traveling over my kids. its just .. I don't know man.. wake up, go to work, come back hear everyone complain and fight, go to the store because we always forget the one thing, go to sleep and do it all over just to pay bills in a never ending cycle is not living. its just wasting what ever time I have and not being able to lie to my kids about being indiana jones or something