I think most of us have been trough similar shit.. Sorry to hear it anon..
My girl has depression and i've always been there for her.. We both had never dated before so we are each other's firsts, i've struggled with depression all my life and so did she.. But she never went to a shrink or anything so it's much worse, sometimes it feels like a huge burden, and sometimes she acts in a rather rude way towards me, i know she doesn't mean it.. But it hurts man..