I started coming here because my ex at the time was sleeping around and ignoring me and it hurt. WG got my mind off of it. My best friend (and other friends I hung out with) became really good friends with my manipulative lying ex after I broke up and thinks I'm the bad persson, after all I did for them; being there when their SO was abusive, standing up for them when their SO was getting aggressive, etc.Diff gf now not spending time with me like the other one but she still wants me around because when she's done fucking around and playing games I'm the one to pick up the pieces for her when she's falling apart.
Minimum wage grind where the manager and head cook talk shit about me and shit on me all day every day, but I'm one of the hardest workers there and everybody except them like me and think I work really hard.
I'm looking to burn this fucking place. Get the fuck out of this shitty town. My current gf like gets all upset and asks "well what's gonna happen?" I'm just gonna leave her and join the armed forces. Fuck this shit. I'm in shape and better than this.
I'm making time this week to go to the recruiter and figure out what I need to do to get into OCS (just graduated). I just want some cuddles or attention or something. And to get the fuck outta this dumb shit fucking rut.
I like to look at the walls and imagine what life is like doing something else; living in a futuristic city, adventuring through the exotic creature ridden mountainside, day dreamy stupid stuff like that.
Sometimes I write and it helps. To just vent.
Til then, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Losing your friends because you were true to your heart and yourself makes you wonder if there's any justice and shit in the world. Nobody got a sense of loyalty or honor these days.
Til then, here's a dank song and a dank pape.
Thanks for letting me vent. Needed it.
Maybe I'll come back later tonight when I get off work. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_jfHalX5atA