This hits really close to home. The girl i've been with for almost 3 years broke up with me 2 weeks ago. She was my first love and i've always felt like i will never truly get over her. I always imagine being with someone else in the future,but i don't think i will be able to stop thinking about her; no matter what i do, i will always think "would she like this? what would she recommend we do?" I was aware our relationship could not go on and we both agreed we should split up, but i think that makes it worse because she did not do me wrong in any way, so i cannot be mad, i can't use anger to get over her easier. She still lives with me but she said she'll move soon. Living with her only makes it harder. I know her moving out is for the best, but i will be devasted not seeing her everyday and waking up next to her. Everything will seem empty.
I guess i can't imagine my life without her. But i have to, that's what makes it tragic. I feel like in 10, 20 years, i will be happily married, have some wonderful kids, but not a single day will pass without thinking about her and what could have been. I cannot imagine the day she will be merely a memory. It's so sad knowing that someone so important to you will one day be only a memory. She has changed me forever.
I dont know if anyone will read this, but i had to let it out.