Damn, good luck anon. My half-brother was diagnosed with a brain tumour when he was only four years old, was close to the center and the size of an average egg. This caused epilepsy for him, there was also a lot of talk about surgery as a last resort. He's now nine and had surgery half a year ago, since the tumour suddenly started growing out of proportion. They're still lowering the amount of medication he takes, but the difference is very noticable, he's happier, laughs more.
Not really sure what I'm trying to say, perhaps that eventually things will get better. Also you shouldn't worry about your loved ones, caring for someone you love isn't a burden. They'll always be there for you. The only thing I can say to you, speaking as someone who always was there for my brother, try to stay happy and optimistic, it's difficult seeing someone you love be unhappy.>>6539809
I'm 20 years old, I'm in a relationship for over 3.5 years now and I'm now starting to realize that I don't want to stay with her forever, seems harsh, but I'm having the same feelings as you. I know I'm in a far easier situation than you right now, but then again, I feel sort of trapped and I know if I don't leave her, I'll probably get in a similar situation as you eventually. On the other hand, I don't want to throw away 3.5 years and I'm still wondering if things might change. Not that anything's really wrong, I just don't feel as in love as I once did and our relationship has become boring or as you said bland.
Tl;dr I just want to feel in love again.
Well in replying to two people I guess I've given a big portion of my story. Lost my father when I was 7, lost my step-father when I was 15, half a year after my brother was diagnosed with that tumour. My mother had a quite extreme depression.
Although I feel like I've gone through a lot, I've never felt like my life was bad or anything, I guess I've just sort of felt numb for the biggest part of it and I want that feeling to stop.