Tell that man good job. Although for me that doesn't work so easily. Or rather that has been the plan from the start. I've wanted to kill myself for coming up on 10 years now and every day in those 10 years I have worked myself to the bone to save up all the money I could to make this worth it. I don't hate myself, I just don't care about anything. To tell you the truth the only reason why I'm still doing this is because I told a long gone friend I would for us before he passed. It isn't even a big deal and I don't believe he is watching over me because we didn't believe in that. We both had no family to speak of and were all we had but, I want to see Europe at least once before I go. I just wish it didn't take so long to do it. Tell you the truth, I hoped something would change my mind along the way, thought that trough all of this working job after job that I'd meet a girl to change my mind and grow old with her or at least find a reason to stick around. But in my life I've realized that shit doesn't change unless you know the right people or are outstanding enough to make a difference and I'm just a regular guy leading a below average life. All I do and all I have done these past 10 or so years is work and go to the gym. Now I have enough money saved to go to some place in Europe, I don't even know where yet, and after one more week, or a month depending on how much money I have left, I'll kill myself. If reincarnation is a thing and I come back as a bug I'll be pissed.