I'm trying to find the right words.
Fuck the people around here that pray for you. Look for sense and something that matters for yourself.
Read books and comics, read Pratchett's and Gaiman's death-related releases, watch movies, listen to music, go see the places you ever wanted to see, talk to old people and their fear of death.
Go meet new people that don't agree with you and tell them how you think.
Say fuck you to the people you want. Go and meet people that want to have sex with you.
Always drive your car way too fast, drink too much, try LSD and DMT, smoke weed till you just laugh your ass off about the word "death".
Hang out with the people you love.
Just live. And, if you want, tell us from time to time how things are working out for you. Consider writing a book or a blog at least.
Our prayers and our goddamned thoughts can't change a thing.
But I hope it helps to know, that there are, were and will be many people that are in the same situation like you.
And in the end, we all will have to die. So enjoy it while you can, we all wish the best for you.