I spent all weekend thinking about suicide
didn't get any sleep, went to work, got through it and now I'm still alive and have slightly more money.
the struggle is real, I can't throw jesus in your face and give you life meaning, the academic world is run by marxists with taylored ideolgy for non white males to destroy us.
we just have to embrace our future, we have to reconnect with the idea we have a future and we're not perfect.
It's so fucking annoying how limited I am. The world just laughs and wants us to die. I'm ashamed of what I am. idk what to do. I don't want to end up therapy slave with no pride dying in submission without any dignity. I've failed so hard in life and idk how to overcome this world. I'm cuked at all angles, idk how to be normal anymore.
BUT I KNOW THERE'S A FUTURE FOR ME