Go steady anon, hope it all goes okay!>>7466329
Hey, so I know the feel, and I know phrases like " you've got your life ahead of you, dont give up", are no use, but a thought that always counts is:
What is wasting your life?Who says the experience you've accumulated can't be made to serve you in the future, maybe now it may seem a so, but if you analyse all what you deem as wasted you can surely discover yourself, discover your problems, solutions, help others, etc.
And consider that, routine makes us feel meaningful, yet you can see from the exterior that maybe there's not much to doing office work all week to feed your kids who will become cogs of a machine and not be known by anybody, they're not making history, but to them it maybe meaningful, so, you know, find your niche, and when things go awry, what else is there to do but continue (if not killing yourself).
Go do something where you have no experience nor knowledge of, buy some clothes to present yourself there, brush your teeth, start delving deeper into that, and you'll find that thing is "important", even if it's bonsai maintenance.