>>9072926>Do you have anything else you can get a reaction from like coffee?
Yeah, crack cocaine and MDMA give me anxiety attacks sometimes. Stimulants in general, I guess. It all started cause of weed though, I used to smoke regularly until one day my brain just decided "NOPE" and I had a huge panic attack. I was having panic attacks on a daily basis while sober for months after that, I don't get attacks anymore but I still can't smoke weed without having one. Pretty sure weed was a large contributing factor to my current anxiety issues. >Please don't rile the yandere lad.
Nothing I do is deliberate, he just struggles a bit with things that are beyond his scope. Good kid though. >Shits fucked m8. I don't know what the hell is happening to me. I think it's keeping everything in and not talking to anyone.
Yeah suppression is never a good thing man. If you don't want to keep falling apart you need to find a way to be true to yourself while still functioning as a human being. That might even mean stepping back from your life for awhile until you sort your headspace out. Your mental well-being should be your primary concern. >I fell of the deep end when I went into guro. I'm still lost there.
I think the thing you're actually lost in is self refusal, or whatever you would call the opposite of self acceptance. Take it from me man, if your activities don't hurt anyone but yourself and/or a consenting party, there's nothing wrong with them. The difference between you and I is I accept my peculiarities. Who do you think is happier? Love yourself.