Yes, wtf. I take it you're a virgin, right? Restricting yourself from sexual release for that long is incredibly unhealthy. Use nofap to regain sensitivity for when you do finally find a girl, and for keeping up your productivity. You, however, have gone the other direction and are just harming yourself.
Here's a good one I current have book marked for you anon, enjoy: https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5b59e61173c6a