Grow up. You're sitting there dwelling on my failure when you should be worried about yourself. Get in shape. Get a job. Socialize more. Stop watching anime, stop jacking off, stop being a faggot and get a girlfriend. Stop flirting with guys (literal men) who have anime avatars on Steam and Discord. Hit the gym, start eating right. By right, I mean a balanced diet with no soda. Talk to your family more. Forget all the negative thinking, congratulate people instead of wishing they fall. Be a better person.