I think she just has astronomically high expectations for herself for no reason at all. Every time it's the same thing about not being to support her team or something similar.
I really don't understand how last tournament she managed to just enjoy the game and even handled slight tilting with ease and brushed it off but now it's this again.
She knows she's playing against preds and pros but still wonders why she can't provide that much impact every match. It's baffling honestly. I want to support her and want her to have fun but that shitty attitude is just unbelievable.
I don't know, maybe it's just a bit too personal because I've had to deal with people in comp games that are like this and it's a pain honestly. Like I go play CS with a couple of friends who barely play and they rage and get pissed when they play bad and aren't able to win against much higher ranks. Like what do you expect when you've only played a couple of hundred hours but some people have wasted half of their lives on one game to be able to compete?
Sure Matsuri has a lot of hours put into Apex, but it's obvious almost none of those are serious focused practice. She spends much more of her time outside of Apex because of her job and she clearly enjoys what she does, hence her usual variety streaming, idol events etc... Yet she still tilts and cries when she can't win against preds who do nothing but play Apex all day and some have played FPS for 10+ years. It's all so tiresome.
As I said in an earlier post, if anything, she should be very happy with the current results and progress they are making. Setting the bar way above your reach and then getting hopeless about not reaching it is just gonna kill your potential growth completely
And then all of it results in more delayed streams again unfortunately... Honestly she shouldn't even make frames during tournament arcs for non-Apex and just start guerrilla if she wants to do something else. This has happened every tournament except CR Cup 4.