Depression and relationships. I feel as though I've been seriously depressed for awhile, and can't stop despite the fact that I've tried to combat it every way possible like exercising and keeping myself busy. I'm worried that I won't be able to find love when I can't like myself. Depression is also selfish, because I have a pretty good life all things considered.
Also fueling my depression is my realization that the grass is always greener. When I'm alone I'm lonely, but when I'm in a relationship I feel trapped. I've also realized that I'm no better or less shallow than anyone else in the world. Somehow early in my life I felt as though I stood on a moral pedestal, but now I know that It's almost impossible for me to be happy.