in second semester of college, want to study film but I may be kicked out after this semester, smart but not a supergenius (IQ is only slightly higher than 140) shit would really suck but it's not the end of the world.
I'd probably be an alcoholic if I could afford it, shit runs in my family and I've been hooked on the buzz ever since I first got drunk at 17, not a DUDEWEEDLMAO for the same reason
probably have autism or aspergers, not severe but it does hold me back from socializing. I have few close friends, even people I've known for years I can hardly hold a conversation with, I have basically no relationship with most of my extended family despite seeing many of them a lot, never even been on a date or done anything with a girl, you get the idea. it's gotten better over the years, but I'm still kinda socially retarded. I can kind of pass off as normative (unlike many autists I'm actually fairly empathetic and can see shit from others' perspectives better than people in general, so I can catch when something I'm doing is cringey and stop before people notice (you'd be surprised what people unintentionally ignore if you don't do it for very long, it's that kind of social conditioning that fascinates me)), but anyone who really knows me can see something's off
I've been browsing 4chan since I was 12 and I know it's helped shape who I am fundamentally, but not in the way you'd think. It's taught me to be critically discern legit info from crap, better prepared me to defend myself, and it let me socialize much more than I would have normally
I don't mean to be a downer, tho, shit could get a lot worse. If I didn't have a genetic predisposition I probably wouldn't even get depressed. I enjoy life, even the shitty parts. I've got my brain, my creativity, and a sense of humor you can only get from spending your formative years on an anonymous Haitian kickboxing imageboard; what could go wrong?
pic related always gives me the feels, easily one of my favorites