Jesus this thread is pathetic. People die, people leave you. What then? What are you going to fucking do about it?
Are you going to work on yourself. Are you going to improve are create yourself in a greater image? Or rather are you going to complain about how shitty life is on an image board.
It's easy to resent life, it's easy to resent those around you. It takes no effort to look onto the world with malice.
What does take effort is change. To the make the decision that you don't want to live the life you are living. Hell, it takes a lot of effort just to realize that you don't have to continue to live the life you are living, but that it is mutable, subject to change and your volitional decisions.
Life is full of beauty, wonder, and excitement. It can be anything and everything you want it to be, it won't be easy, but people worse off than any of you have come out of it thriving.
It's do or die. What are you going to do about it.